the not bothering to respond is bothering me. i do not like it. have told to your face many times. am getting a little sick of it. as much as i like to believe you want to talk to me, i'd like to see a response.

forever my little baby;

happy 1st birthday micah dearest. i miss you and i love you so very much. cant wait to go home and give you lots of cuddles and kisses xx look how big you've grown!

"it's amazing how a single text, can change your mood completely. and it's amazing how just expecting one and receiving none in return can change your mood completely as well."

was always told that texting does not define feelings for one. but, it is proving a different point now.

8 months, 278 days;

"start everyday with a new hope, leave bad memories behind and have faith for a better tomorrow"

well of course just like everybody, we have our fair share of problems. sometimes we share it and i believe at times we dont. it's pretty amazing to see that we've been together for a while now and we're still happy with each other. was talking to a friend the other day and she said she needs somewhere to hide when she's feeling sad. well i believe in this case, you ARE my place to hide and you have defined me in the last 8 months. been saying hurtful and disappointing things to you lately, but we did promise to never keep secrets. and i can only hold on for so long before it manifests into a secret. im sorry fatty :( i still love you tho x

on a side note, uni has been pretty alright. very stressful but alright. having done my placements in two different settings i can see which i might lean towards. still on the fence with it though to be honest. i am enjoying my course, & that is something you wont hear a lot from me.

"learning is being, being is believing"

when you talk to me i swear the whole world stops;
you’re my sweetheart and i’m so glad that you’re mine,
You are one of a kind.

ah procrastination on the essay is hitting me hard.
on a side note, i think i have completely abandoned xanga :(

so i may be a little smitten.

but thats ok, i like how this feels. i hope you do too.

210;

"6 months isnt a long time, but for us, considering our past, it is."



its been a while hasn't it? i've never been happier. things may seem a little out of hand lately; i do feel like my life's a mess, but, im glad you're always there to keep me grounded and hold me when i need it. we've had our share of ups and downs. not everyone approves but i dont care. you're there for me and i whole heartedly appreciate that.

i love you, happy 6 months hun x.

hear my thoughts in every note;

I only pray you never leave me behind, because good music can be so hard to find. I take your hand and pull it closer to mine; Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind.

oi fatty;

hiiiii :3 i love you.

pretty much sums it up?

“You want to know what happiness is? It’s waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around and see him in his most peaceful, innocent and vulnerable state. He breathes as though the weight of the world lays on anyone’s shoulder but his own. You smile, kiss his face in the most gentle manner so as not to wake him. You turn back around and involuntarily a grin forms on your own face. You feel an arm wrap around your waist, and in this moment, you know it doesn’t get any better than this.”

86;

the spaces between my fingers feel empty without yours.

happy birthday, you know what you are;

yes, you're a unicorn.

to the guy who makes me smile;

i love the way you make me feel when im around you. it feels real. but to be honest, im scared of letting you in like the rest because im afraid of you turning out to be just like them. i wont lie, im scared. but you're a chance im willing to take xx

thanks for making the decision for me. you're not as awesome as i think you are.

and it all comes crumbling down.

history repeats;

all good things must come to and end. ended before it started. didnt even give it a chance.

not like the movies;

020311;

Life is funny sometimes, we don't get things we want, but we get things we WANT. Am currently in Melbourne, although it's hard at first, I am coping. I've friends here that make me feel at home and all the love in the world. Events aren't falling short though. There seems to be a festival every weekend. Soundwave and the Bruswick Music Festival just passed and the Moomba Festival is coming up. Pretty stoked to be going.

I stumbled upon a rare opportunity last week; I got to go to a 30 Seconds to Mars show. It was a secret show in Melbourne, courtesy of Take 40. It's been my dream to go see a 30STM show and what better than to attend a semi-private show in Melbourne. About 100 people turned up for the event and the band rocked the evening. It was a short gig unfortunately but the band did not fail to amaze. I got amazing shots of my 'God', Shannon and Tom and I got to experience a once in a lifetime opportunity, partying on stage with the band for the number 'Kings and Queens'. For my first show in Melbourne, it was pretty much epic. And it was FREE.

'God'; he sings like a MAN.

Tomo needs a shave.

Monster on the drums.

This was the best view ever, I won't lie; I'm CRAZY.

And guess who else I met?? He's wayy too adorable man.

Dear Melbourne, I hope luck will finally stay on my side. You've been good to me, and it's only 3 weeks. I could get used to this.

2010;

some of the highlights of my 2010. there's been ups and downs but I lived through it :) i can say i've been pretty lucky in 2010, and i hope it follows through in 2011. i've only one resolution, and that's to survive 2011 with a smile. nuff said, happy new year everyone.